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Hey guys.I'm still here.
Just kinda going through a rough patch.
I'm okay right now but it's hard to keep up with all the websites and life and everything.
I guess I keep putting off updating you guys.
I'm not sure why, but I do.
I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm okay and still here, just absent.
I don't know what to fucking do anymore.I seriously don't know what to do.
Right now my life consists of:
me having major breakdowns
me panicing about my psychiatrist appointment tomorrow
me feeling or wanting to feel numb
important people in my life wanting to die
I'm trying to get over this, I really really am. I'm just so worried about everything. My friends, my family. I'm worried I'm depressed, I'm worried that I'll need meds. I'm worried I'm suicidal, I'm extremely worried about the people in my life who are suicidal. I'm so worried. I just want to stop worrying about everything. I just want to stop.
I love you all.I swear I'm the only teenager I know with unmarked, clean & scarless wrists.
And that absolutely kills me.
I'M SO HOMESICK FOR THIS WEBSITE. AND EVERY MOTHERTRUCKER ON HERE.
I just wrote a journal and now I'm writing another one but I was looking at my past journal entries and I realized why I love this website. When I need support you guys are there, which is lovely. I love the community on here! I love having people who I know will be there. I'm really sorry I disappeared. Please still love me! Do I still have friends on here?!
Anywaffle. The point of this journal entry was to update you guys on things that happened in my life since I've been gone.
1. Concert. I told you guys about it happening but never went into detail. I loved it. But then again I love concerts. They put me at ease and make me feel calm. Which sounds weird.
2.I turned 18... Yeah let's skip that one...
3. I'm going to the doctor's because my anxiety is getting worse. I'm terrified of doctors.
4. My insomnia is getting worse (she writes at 8am , having not slept yet)
5. I've had countless break downs.
6. I've become
I didn't die!!!So, I'm still alive.
I didn't die.
I feel so bad for neglecting you all.
Sorry I'm never on here anymore...
I'm sure I'll start coming back regularly soon.
I'm just on one of my kicks where I stop using dA for a while.
I have Tumblr & Twitter if you want to keep up with me...
Not that any of you will...
Anyways you can follow me on Tumblr. missmusicmartina.tumblr.com
And on Twitta Martina_Chaos...
I miss my friends on here!
Come be my tumblr friends!
I don't have many!
I'm constantly on there!
I'm also constantly on Polyvore so if you have an account come chat with me!!!
THIS IS THE CUTEST EFFING PENCILasdfghjkl;
I am so pumped!
I'm gonna go see Faber Drive & Fighting for Ithaca
and Victoria Duffield and Kreesha Turner and Courage My Love.
But I'm most pumped for FFI & Faber Drive!
What does everybody want for Christmas?!
If you don't celebrate Christmas, what are you doing for the holidays?!
SO MANY HAPPYS!
I'm jamming to Christmas songs!
MERRY CHRISTMAS KISS MY ASSSS!
Only 19 days till my concert!
Then 23 days till XMas!
MERRY CHRISTMAS, I COULD CARE LESS.
Have a happy holiday season, if I'm not back before then!
Wisdom Teeth :/I got all four of my wisdom teeth out today.
I was disappointed because after all the hilarious videos I've seen of the way people act when they get their wisdom teeth out.
For the first hour or so I was giggley and smilely and wouldn't stop talking but I felt pretty much sober just a bit woozy, wobbly and hyper, oddly enough...
Anywhoodle I just wanted to let you all know I survived!!!
I'm anxious to see how swollen I get and if I get bruising.
Overall, totally not worth me freaking out!
Although I really miss food! I'm on a soup, noodles, jello and pudding diet as of now. :/
Not exactly gourmet but can't complain.
PREMIUM + POINTS GIVEAWAY /Project EARNPREMIUM MEMBERSHIP & POINTS GIVEAWAY
AS PART OF PROJECT EARN
Prizes: 3 month premium membership, 1 month premium membership, 300 points
I told you a new giveaway was coming! This time I do it to spread the word about my current dA project PROJECT EARN which focus on encouraging awareness in different topics every month. The current topic is about bullying and everyone is welcomed to participate! Read more here: Project EARN introduction
This will be my 3rd giveaway and it will work the same way as the other times. The difference this time is that you have the chance to win a 3-month premium membership!
1st: 3 MONTH FREE PREMIUM MEMBERSHIP (1 winner)
2nd: 1 MONTH FREE PREMIUM MEMBERSHIP (2 winners)
3rd: 100 POINTS (1 w
NEW CONTEST: Draw Izka or Amelia!!So I decided to open a new contest, draw either one or both of my original characters: Izka & Amelia!
I really hope you will be interested in entering
~~~~~~~~~CHARACTERS: Izka and Amelia~~~~~~~~~
Click the image below for more info about the characters!!
- Draw my Original Character: Amelia or Izka, or both girls.
- You can draw only one girl or both together.
- You can add your own original characters to the picture as long as theres Amelia or Izka in it! (or both)!
Especially animals or creatures, since both girls love animals/ creatures a lot!
-Please draw Amelia with her bunny ears & tail
April Giveaway: 3 month sub!------------
A deadline's been set for April 20! Enter by then and you may have this chance
Two 3 month subscriptions, of course
I like doing these when I'm offline for a while. It's my way of apologizing for not keeping my promises to be more active. I'm trying! Thank you to those who continue to support me. It really is great having a backbone of support on devART-- especially when you're in a college full of super talented art MAJORS X'D I'm just a journalist major who really loves writing about her characters and occasionally drawing them.
There are two requirements, as always!
1) Be a watcher.
2) Favorite this journal.
*Otherwise, no rules. If you want to post a comment though, I'd love to talk to you! On a side note, I'm now on the MMO Final Fantasy 14! It's so pretty
And I did a thing! For the first time in forever
And then I returned...It's been a while since I've been actively online.
But even though temporary, it did changed my perspective on some matters.
It's weird how much the internet can become an influence, and how this process goes so unnoticed. At a certain point the countless voices of people around you blend into a continuous buzz. A buzz that you soon get so familiar with that you forget there was a life before it. I guess that's what social media does in general; creating a buzz. An artificial need for you to continuously be online and check your messages, because you might just miss something otherwise. Life, in general, has become so infused with the internet that it sometimes scares me. I'm part of the internet industry. Hell, I even made it my job! But even I sometimes find myself wondering where the time has gone that I could work on an artwork for hours straight, without feeling that creeping itch to check my messages.
The last few weeks before the break, I've repeatedly felt bad about
Pixel Raffle - Closed!
To celebrate Spring Break, as well as 200+ watchers, I decided I'm going to hold a pixel raffle! Basically I'll be giving away a journal doll, a set of linked icons, and a single icon for free! Just read the information below to enter.
Ends in about 48 hours, on April 14th at 8:00 AM. Winners will be announced shortly after.
After the raffle closes, I'll be using random.org to chose the winners! The name that comes up first wins the doll, second wins the linked icons, and third wins the single icon!
+Fav this Deviation. That's it!
To Increase the Odds:
Advertise this Deviation in a poll or journal, and link me to it below. This will add your name to the pool a second time, to double your chances, as well as letting more people know about it!
What I Do and Don't Draw:
Wolves, Dogs, Cats, Horses, Lions, MLP, Original Animal Species, e
The World's Grumpiest Charity CollaborationThe long wait is over! The new charity collab is officially OPEN!
Take a close look at my previous collaborations:
Honoring our antagonists/supporting antagonists
Celebrating Kirby's Anniversary
Biggest collab on deviantART by far with 270 people!!
I am happy to announce the next theme!
Grumpy Cat is the theme of this collaboration!! Let us honor the world's grumpiest cat and raise money for the Animal Shelter!!
For every submission I get, I will add $0.50 to the pool. That money will be sent to the SPCA right here in Swift Current. this is a "no kill" shelter and the are in a bind right now. Every grumpy cat will be for a good cause! Help me reach 200 people again! If I get 200 submissions, I will donate 50 do
~500 Points GiveAway!!!!!!!!~:icondragonhi: Hi everyones!!
Finally I have the necessary points to make a little giveaway, for the members of this group.
The points are from my personal points box.
Only one will can win this special price.
Addicional Gifts: I will raffle 3 free commission beetwen the participants too (exept the winner)
How Participe? Is very simple
1. Watch me SolKorra :iconsolkorra:
2. Fave this draws
3. Comment this journal with the word "Done".
4.If you want participe too for the 3 free commissions, comment with th
New Contest - donate prizesTwo Themes Contest
new contest and this contest we will do differently because it was very difficult to choose 1 theme among the 20 suggestions made, then will have two themes, and you can choose which theme to make your entry.
and the themes chosen are :
My friend is a monster (can be a fantasy creatures)
choose your favorite theme for you to make your entry. and do something creative, because jurors will judge creativity.
PE: How to Make Pixel CloudsHow to Make Pixel Clouds
In this tutorial, I will be showing you how to make pixel clouds. I have two different types of clouds I use depending on the piece; semi-realistic, and cartoon style. I will be showing you both today!
Let us start!
The semi realistic style can be done two ways, depending on if you are limiting colors or not.
First, I'm going to show you the way for if you do not care how many colors you use.
First you will pull out your pencil brush, as you would normally do when making pixel art, and set the color to white. After that, set the opacity to around 10%-20%.
Randomly brush side to side with the pencil, and then overlap some lines randomly as well.
Keep doing that until the cloud if about as big as you need it; it should look something like this.c:
The Reckless and The Brave<3:iconeeeeeplz:
Long live the reckless and the brave
I don't think I wanna be saved
My song has not been sung
So long live us
Looking out at a town called Suburbia
Everybody's just fighting to fit in
Little rats running mazes, having babies
It's a vicious little world that we live in
Looking back at life on the other side
I realize that I didn't fit in
Didn't hate it
But I didn't quite relate it
To my precious little world
So long live the reckless and the brave
I don't think I want to be saved
My song has not been sung
And long live the fast times
So come what may
I don't think I'll ever be saved
Our song has not been sung
Long live us
Breaking out of a town called Suburbia
I remember everyone always saying
"Little brat must be crazy
Never make it in our vicious little world"
Still I'm leaving
Got a van, got a chance, got my dignity
Got a dream, got a spark, got somewhere to be
I'll take a breath, say goodbye
To their precious little world
(Say goodbye to me!)
So long live the reckless
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Bluefley has a gallery filled with artwork that whisks you off in to a Sci-fi daydream, and keeps you captivated for hours. Marc has been a member of our community for over a decade and has achieved nothing but success with his astounding commitment to interacting with the community, sharing a prolific amount of video tutorials and generally being an all round rockstar deviant. It is no joke that we are absolutely delighted to award the Deviousness Award for April 2014 to ... Read More