I haven't really said anything on here for like two years now so if you don't remember me that's cool. I am still alive, unfortunately. Okay peace out. thanks for all the times you were there for me im not gonna do anything. Don't worry. I'll keep living

I'm still here. Just kinda going through a rough patch. I'm okay right now but it's hard to keep up with all the websites and life and everything. I guess I keep putting off updating you guys. I'm not sure why, but I do. I'm sorry. I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm okay and still here, just absent.

I seriously don't know what to do. Right now my life consists of: me having major breakdowns crying me panicing about my psychiatrist appointment tomorrow depression me feeling or wanting to feel numb important people in my life wanting to die panic worrying anxiety more breakdowns more crying more anxiety more panic more worrying ... I'm trying to get over this, I really really am. I'm just so worried about everything. My friends, my family. I'm worried I'm depressed, I'm worried that I'll need meds.  I'm worried I'm suicidal, I'm extremely worried about the people in my life who are suicidal. I'm so worried. I just want t